I’m sorry I talk so much

I have moments of crippling anxiety where I want to tell the person talking to me that they don’t have to apologize for their words.

But I don’t.

I mean I won’t. From this day

Call me selfish but I don’t want the increased guilt of letting them know that they apologized. Not because I care for them don’t get me wrong.

I care for me. I’m afraid of the guilt.

I’m sorry I said that, I care for them too, but if a person has found solace in saying

“I’m sorry I talk so much”

“Please don’t apologize”

Seems rude almost, and unkind. But until this moment that I have decided to not say it ever again, while I write this, I have always said

“Please don’t apologize” even if sometimes I have not meant it.

Actually a lot of times

Not because I don’t want anyone talking about themselves to me, but at times when they open up so much I do not know what to say, and I want them to keep talking and not pause

“I’m sorry I talk so much”

“PLEASE KEEP TALKING HONESTLY I HAVE NO APPROPRIORIATE RESPONSE TO WHAT YOU JUST SAID, BUT PELASE DON’T STOP”

Of course I‘m not always so benevolent, at times I really don’t like what the person is talking about, and when they say

“I’m sorry I talk so much”

“YOU SHOULD BE, WHAT ARE YOU EVEN ON ABOUT” it’s not unkind to think it is it?

I don’t know, I never know. So

“Please don’t apologize” I lie

Oh also

I’m sorry I talk so much.

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